When I give him that look, he asks why I think it’s weird for him to rap along with the radio. He looks back at his game on the TV as I shake my head, place my hand on his shoulder. We were the first in school to begin to grow beards. We will order pizza with halal pepperoni; he will ask about my mother, what it was like for her to re-marry. My mother has not made Arabic food since she converted and met her husband at church. His mother rolls grape leaves on the front porch, wet like his gelled hair. She whispers to the neighbors. When he asks his questions, he stares into the hybridity in my arteries. I stare at the hair on his arms, compare the tight curls on my head, the curve of his nose.
Marlin M. Jenkins was born and raised in Detroit, graduated from Saginaw Valley State University in Michigan, and will be attending University of Michigan’s MFA program this fall. His writings have found homes in River Styx, Yemassee, and Midwestern Gothic, among others. You can find him online at marlinmjenkins.tumblr.com and @Marlin_Poet.
I hated my mother sometimes as all good girls do, because there were too many pairs of unused shoes in her closet, hoarded there, a heart beating only for itself.
But how could love be measured by the amount of dust falling on thirteen pairs of red shoes, I chided myself.
I loved my mother, most of the time, remembering we both breathe the same early morning air with such relish, before worrying over the weather the day might bring, this as all farm women in my family are apt to do.
And apt to stare into the mirror, where my skin has taken on the texture of dried leather, like that single pair of shoes left in the garden, untended, splitting open.
And apt to exaggerate the count of shoes and the texture of memory, gaps where the past should be, that oblique place I cannot quite describe, except to say it was small, cramped with the clutter of at least a hundred high heels and no clear faces.
Mary Catherine Harper, a Southwest Kansas drylands native, lives at the confluence of the Auglaize and Maumee in Ohio. She organizes the annual SwampFire Retreat for artists and writers in Angola, Indiana, and has poems in The Comstock Review, Cold Mountain Review, Old Northwest Review, Pudding Magazine, SLAB, MidAmerica, and New England Review. Her “Muddy World” won the 2013 Gwendolyn Brooks Poetry Prize, and her chapbook, Some Gods Don’t Need Saints, was recently published.
In the George Wythe High School auditorium,
at “The Boys’ Beauty Contest” in 1958,
I played to the rowdy crowd
as best I could but got only nervous laughs,
a couple of jeers, and mostly
tepid applause.
But here’s what I remember–how serious
Mary Sawyers was helping me
put on my make-up,
Nancy Umberger stuffing my bra with gym socks,
Sarah Parsons grieving over how wrong
my ballet flats
looked with that dress. T.W. Alley,
our All-State tackle who’d got
his front teeth knocked
out that year–a 260 pound bawdy slut
who turned her back to the audience
and shook it–won,
and every single one of us teenage queens
knew T. deserved it, but still–
and I don’t know why nobody
ever talked about it–backstage, us boys
changing back to the sex
we were used to
and even the girls who’d helped change us–
we were all kind of quiet
and sad.
David Huddle‘s most recent books are Nothing Can Make Me Do This, a novel, and Black Snake at the Family Reunion, a collection of poems. He’s a native of Ivanhoe, Virginia, and he makes his home in Burlington, Vermont.
Eyes rend and tear.
Mouths gape, jaws have forgotten
their function. Idolized
is she, amongst the strobing lights
and fluorescent bulbs.
But, we’re rarely pretty when
stripped of our hearts, when
the camera shifts below
our hips, when flesh and jaw
dangle, longingly attached
to their former structure.
She’s shucking her glossed
leather gloves, flicking light
from shadow. She’s tugging
each gloved finger, peeling back
it’s black casing, a second
skin. Her sash blinds
in the stuttering lights, freed
from its bindings. Her hips
dip and roll in their easy crash
and saunter of angst-laced bass.
The precise pitch a perfect fever
to settle deep in the bones.
Glacial heels slam and crack
against the stage, her glove
drifts to the floor.
Why is death never a woman?
Why is she only aching
when she creates a life
for you? This body half loved
by you, this body spinning
a new life for you and
loving it more because that
budding body is half of you
too. Why is does she ache while
she’s creates a body
to sustain you?
Her robe parts, a scar
cleaves her soft belly
in two. The hood
of her robe, peaked over
her brow sheathes
pitted sockets and mangled
maw. Scuffed heels pierce
the sleek pedestal in which
she was raised. Her ease
fractures with rigor
mortis, her gentle serial
suicides laid as stepping
stones for the ferrying.
Her hood falls, long locks
moth eaten, much like
the webs she’s weaved.
The lies piled upon curled
silk, spun from ashes
and grief.
Why is she
not our harbinger
of death? The androgynous
shape the same
as any cut
from the stripped
fineries of living.
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For now Brit Graham traverses the tundra that is South Dakota, while tripping over things while stargazing in the all too brief summer months. She is the crux of an ongoing love affair between the Pacific and Atlantic. She managed to pry an MFA in Poetry from the grasp of Converse College. You can read her poetry things in publications like Devilfish Review, The Night Owl, RealSouth Magazine, and The OWL.
strangers lined in rows sundresses on layaway where’d you buy dem shoes?
MéShelle Fae has a passion for teaching and developing others, which led to the creation of meshellefae.com, her online blog for writers who want to hone their craft or learn how to tell their stories on a digital platform. She’s an avid reader of anything she finds interesting and thinks of herself as “the ultimate geeky, weird nerd-girl.” She’s a resident of Charleston, SC, where she operates The Writers’ Block, a literacy and mentorship program.
Remembering the sound of my father’s axe as it split wood, the pile of kindling on the ground, how my fingers would test the edge of the blade for sharpness and the day it left us when we ice-fished on Banks Lake, Mark chopping a hole through the thick ice, the axe slipping from his grasp as it broke through the opening and fell to the lake’s floor where it still lies— Have you felt the surprise when you swing at something expecting to feel resistance, but hit emptiness?
This December, George Such will graduate from University of Louisiana Lafayette with a Ph.D. in English, a significant change from his previous incarnation as a chiropractor for twenty-seven years in Washington State. His creative writing has appeared in Arroyo Literary Review, Barely South Review, The Cape Rock, Dislocate, The Evansville Review, and many other literary journals.
Chipped plaster, termite-infested walls, cockroaches— that which is worn, desecrated, lived in; ghosts, overtaken gardens, tilted fences, scattered tool pieces— that which is overwrought, still growing; tree houses, sibling truces, midnight pillow forts, mailboxes— that which we build together, try maintaining; grief, malicious gods, tsunami aftershocks, gravestones— that which we dread, yet still want to cling to; cradles, mothers’ eyes, fathers’ hands, port dock posts— that which nurtures us, kept us tethered; toy ships, beached debris, tropical hurricanes, scorched sand— that which topples, adapts to destruction; moving trucks, interstate traffic, 80s rock & roll, cardboard boxes— that which is in motion, sequences go, going, gone.
Starr Herr recently graduated with a BFA Creative & Professional Writing and BA Philosophy at Converse College. She worked on her high school literary magazine staff as editor-in-chief and her college literary magazine staff as a poetry editor.
Let’s pretend the room is dark. You on your blue bedspread daydreaming when your daddy comes swaggering down the hall bringing presents. Hmm, not here since Christmas, but he’s come to lead the singing on Easter, make your church thunder with hallelujahs, rock with hosannas;
let’s pretend he promises to watch you in the senior play, and you slip out front to take a peek, but he’s not there. Not that you expect a miracle, but let’s say he appears in the second act: your dead-beat father, ashen in the stage lights, new Afro, his deep brown face reminding you so much of yourself, you forget your lines, forget how lonely you always are.
Then, one day peeling peaches for a cobbler—crumbling sugar, flour, and more sugar in a bowl and smearing sweet salted butter over everything, taking your time when a door slams, and there he is, smelling like Wild Turkey and Old Spice, you blinking at white sharkskin and gold incisors, the loss of all the
years, when the knife leaves your hand, clatters to the floor, and Gran appears, lifts the hem of her apron, fans her face, speaks slow like she’s from high class Southern soil: Every girl need a daddy, but this girl walking in the light. We don’t need no trouble,
and your daddy steps back, catches himself before he falls clear through the screen door and slips away, you leaning against the table, thinking this is just pretend, but there’s a knife on the floor, your gran reaching for the Bible, shaking and praying, peach juice running down your wrist.
Ann Herlong-Bodman’s work has appeared in numerous print and online journals, including The Courtland Review,Atlanta Review, South Carolina Review, Cold Mountain Review, Main Street Rag and KaKaLak, anthology of Carolina poetry. She is a former journalist, travel writer, and college teacher whose full-length poetry manuscript was named runner-up in the 2010 SC Poetry Initiative competition. A featured reader at the Piccolo Spoleto Sundown Poetry Series in Charleston, SC, she lives along the Carolina coast.
I said Vic Damone. He was a singer, like Mike Douglas
or Jerry Vale or Steve Lawrence, narrow tie
and pastel shirt, a pleasant enough face, pleasant enough voice
singing the standards, the love songs of his parents’ courtship.
Think singing new songs so that they sound old, wrong,
nothing to fall in love by, but Vic Damone a star
in my family’s firmament, because of the famous elevator ride.
At the Jersey shore for our summer vacation,
in a hotel with an outdoor pool, it was the afternoon
my sister and I were allowed to sunbathe by ourselves
as we waited for my mother to come down,
as my father took a nap in the room.
Could it have been that my mother and father
both took a nap, together? This question did not occur to us.
Anyway, we dangled our feet in the water, made sloppy,
slappy footprints to the plastic lawn chairs, and we waited.
When my mother stepped into the elevator, there he was,
Vic Damone, like any man wearing a polo shirt and plaid shorts.
My mother, bright white towels
pressed to her pink seersucker bathing suit with boy-cut legs,
my mother smelled of suntail oil, and did not speak a word
to Vic Damone, did not even look at him, although
she could not help but see his reflection
in the elevator’s steel doors, until the doors slid open onto sunlight.
She walked over to us and sat, began combing my sister’s hair
into a pony tail, while Vic Damone paused beside the elevator.
He put on his sunglasses, lit a cigarette,
maybe preparing to meet his agent or sign a contract,
to be driven to rehearsal for a show. Then he turned,
headed into the lobby, and my mother, still combing, whispered,
That’s Vic Damone, as if she spoke not a man’s name, but,
rather, a verb or noun, and she was enriching our vocabulary, vicdamone meaning “to prepare for departure” or “to pause,
to reconsider,” vicdamone meaning “privacy in a public space,” vicdamone the discretion that keeps strangers from saying
what could divert them from other, more important, things.
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Suzanne Cleary‘s poetry books are Keeping Time and Trick Pear, both published by Carnegie Mellon. Her honors include a Pushcart Prize and inclusion in several anthologies, including Poetry 180 and Best American Poetry.