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A Conversation with Author Sonja Condit

Interview by Rebecca Landau

Sonja Condit’s debut novel, Starter House, was published by William Morrow Books, a subsidiary of Harper Collins, in December 2013 and received strong reviews, with Kirkus describing it as “good, scary fun, packed with emotional nuance.” The novel follows a young couple as they move into a charming fixer-upper in South Carolina ready to start a family. Little do they know the house has a reputation as place that “eats babies,” and the further along in her first pregnancy wife Lacey becomes, the more in danger she and her unborn child are to the same sinister presence that has tormented generations at 571 Forrester Lane.

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Is there a horror trope you’d be happy to see go away?

There are some things that have always bothered me about haunted houses, specifically. First, the houses are usually ancient, and huge, and obviously evil. Why would anyone live there? You should know better. The 19th century robber baron’s mansion with doors to nowhere, and a torture chamber imported from France—you shouldn’t try to make it into a bed-and-breakfast. The house that used to be a mortuary, and still has vats of formaldehyde in the basement—that’s not a good place to raise your family. The house in Starter House has a history, but it’s a common, ordinary house, newly renovated, and not that old. It was important to me that it be an ordinary house. That’s why it’s identical to the house next door.

I understand that Starter House is based on an actual house in your neighborhood that often is vacant, or only can keep tenants for short periods. What is the status of the house now?

It’s currently empty. Two months ago, a real estate company cleaned it up, scraped the oak saplings out of the gutter, and painted inside, but nobody has bought it, even though the sign says, “Down Payment $100.”

In a horror novel like this, how did you approach maintaining and building suspense for the reader? Were you ever scared that a scene wasn’t scary enough and in revision, amp up the intensity, or feel a scene might be too much, and tone down the horror elements?

It’s hard for me to know the effect. After all, everyone reacts differently. Whenever I could make something worse for the characters, I did. I never went the other way. Some readers tell me they were terrified, others say it wasn’t all that scary, so this is a reaction the writer can’t control. I was going for creepy-scary, not gory-scary, and creepiness is a very personal reaction.

Without spoiling too much, what would you say was your favorite chapter to write and why? By extension, was there a character in whose point of view you most enjoyed spending time?

I don’t have a favorite chapter, but I enjoyed writing Lex Hall because his mind was so different. The two other point of view characters, Lacey and Eric, see themselves as being very different in terms of background and character, but truly they are more alike than they think. They’re the same age, they grew up in the same state, and they were educated in the same schools—after all, they met in college. Lex being so different allowed me to triangulate Lacey and Eric’s relationship; Lex has his own relationship with each of them. Even though Lex and Lacey don’t meet until the end, they do have a relationship throughout the story, beginning with the similarity of their names. Everything Lex does is a reflection of something Lacey does. She breaks a window to get into the house; he breaks a window to get into his mother-in-law’s apartment. She can’t wash the dog; he can’t wash the baby. The smell of crayons reminds her of the first day of school, and later, the smell of crayons reminds him of something he can’t remember. This was fun to write.

As a teacher yourself, can you speak to why you made two of your characters teachers: Harry (who also is a musician like you) and Lacey?

Lacey being a teacher comes down to reasonableness. If you truly believed your house was haunted, wouldn’t you find a way to get out of it? It has to be reasonable for the characters to stay. Writers spend a lot of authorial energy locking their characters into the bad place. For instance, in The Shining, Stephen King spends hundreds of pages locking his people into the haunted hotel, first economically, and then emotionally, and then physically with the snowstorm, and even then he had to break the woman’s spine to keep her in there. How could I do that in a suburb? The only way was to make Lacey a person who could not be afraid of a child, somebody whose personality and training and self-image were all about teaching and helping. Harry is a violin teacher so that he can have children coming in and out of his house, and so he can be home in the daytime. That was a logistical choice.

Is there a theme you’d love to address but have not yet explored? Is there a type of writing (a different genre, even a different narrative style) you would love to try but have not yet explored?

I don’t know about themes. For me, the theme develops out of the characters and their situation. I greatly admire writers who can create enormous, multi-volume works, but probably don’t have it in me. My attention span is too short. Three hundred pages, yes. Three thousand, no. Sometimes people ask me if I’m writing a sequel, but no, those characters have done their work.

Now that the book has been out for awhile, do you have any insights for aspiring authors on the process of publishing the book, the experience of promoting it, etc.?

There is so much rejection. It’s very painful, and you can’t avoid all of it, especially in the early stages when you get all those “thanks but no thanks” form letters from agents and editors. You just have to struggle through that. I’ve been avoiding reviews—there were good reviews early on, which was great, but more experienced writers have told me not to read the reviews on Amazon and Goodreads, particularly the bad ones, and never, ever, ever respond to them. It’s hard to see the book as “something I made” and not “something that’s part of me,” but that separation is necessary.

What are you reading now? Is there a book you recently read that you would recommend?

I just finished The Cove by Ron Rash and The Accursed by Joyce Carol Oates, and they’re both very good, in different ways.

What can you tell us about the book you’re working on now?

I am revising a book and am also in the very early stages of figuring out the characters in the next one. The one I’m revising is a family mystery with a ghost in it, set mostly in Finland, and the new one is suspense with no supernatural element, although it’s based on a medieval Flemish vampire legend. I thought it was time to try something naturalistic, so of course I went straight to medieval Flemish vampires, only I’m translating them into modern South Carolina doomsday preppers. This is leading to some exciting research.

About the Author (from the publisher)

Sonja-ConditSonja Condit received her MFA from Converse College, where she studied with Robert Olmstead, Leslie Pietrzyk, R. T. Smith, and Marlin Barton. Her short fiction has appeared in Shenandoah magazine, among other publications. She plays principal bassoon in the Hendersonville Symphony Orchestra and the Greater Anderson Musical Arts Consortium. She teaches at the South Carolina Governor’s School for the Arts and Humanities.

About the Interviewer

Rebecca-LandauRebecca Landau received her MFA from Converse College in June 2014 and serves as Artistic Director of South85 Journal, selecting work for publication and redesigning the online site for the Converse College literary journal. She is also a communications assistant at the Mountain Area Health Education Center in Asheville.

Columbia

Jake Wolff

So I’m working on a novel set in early 2003, and I’m stuck on this one scene. I’ve had this thing baking forever but it keeps coming out like a sugar cookie—way too plain. It needs frosting.

I go to the facts: What was happening in the world at that moment? Now I’m surfing the web. And I remember, duh, that the Space Shuttle Columbia blew up on February 1st of that year, killing all seven crewmembers. I think: Perfect! I think: That will set the mood for my scene.

So now I open the scene with a description of Columbia reentering Earth’s atmosphere. Everything seems normal. Then the shuttle starts to shake. Then the alarms go off. Then the fire starts, and the temperature rises, and the astronauts look at each with depth, because they know what’s happening. And at this point I’m doing some serious, look-at-me-go Creative Writing. I pretty much have the Pulitzer wrapped up.

I finish the three paragraphs on the Columbia disaster just as the reminder on my phone goes off. The reminder says: Hey, moron, you have to teach a class called Fiction Technique in twenty minutes so why aren’t you in the car already?

I get in the car. I turn on the radio. It’s loud. My wife, who last used the car, blasts NPR like it’s heavy metal. I lower the volume but keep the station. Terry Gross is interviewing some guy. He’s an astronaut. Weird coincidence!

Terry says something like: Have any of your crewmembers ever died on the space station?

And this astronaut, I don’t know his name, I’m joining the interview halfway, says something like: No, but of course I was already an astronaut when the Columbia exploded.

And then he starts to cry.

He’s crying but talking through it. He says: I’m guilty for what happened. He says: I felt in my gut that something was wrong but I didn’t speak up about it. He says: Terry, I helped kill those guys.

And now I’m crying!

I get to campus, and I find a parking spot eventually, and I teach this fiction workshop—it’s Halloween and half the class doesn’t show—and then I drive home and I turn on the computer and I delete every last word about the Columbia explosion because I don’t care whether it happened ten years ago or ten thousand, if I’m going to write about the deaths of seven human beings for no other reason than cookie frosting and if I’m going to write those seven deaths without really feeling them, deep in my heart, like that poor guy on the radio, like it happened yesterday and I’m to blame for all of it, well, then I can pretty much go fuck myself.

 

Jake-WolffJake Wolff‘s work has appeared in journals such as One Story, Bellevue Literary Review, and Tin House. He holds an MFA in creative writing from the University of Wisconsin-Madison, and he’s currently pursuing a PhD in creative writing at Florida State University.  Visit him on the web at www.jakewolff.com.

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Blue Collar Poetry

Stephen Kolter

I suppose I’m a blue-collar poet. I have a factory job, yet I write poetry. My sporadic formal education has been all but forgotten. A lot of my poems are written while working at the factory or about working there. So, that settles it, right?

It was only within the last year that I realized there is such a thing as “blue-collar poetry”. We could possibly say that Whitman got the ball rolling with his odes to American life, though there are earlier examples from other countries. Sandburg kept it rolling for a while with an entire career of workman’s dirges in the beginning of the last century. Still, I felt like I was writing to their ghosts.

Whenever I would pick up a lit mag I would first flip to the contributors’ bios. MFA, MFA, BA with an MFA in progress, MFA. It seemed that we uneducated folk weren’t allowed to publish poetry. Or anything else, for that matter. “Take your played-out AC/DC songs and be happy!”

I thought I was weird, an anomaly. I mean I know the guys I work with don’t read anything but sports scores. In fact, their genius for interpreting statistics blows my mind. The only writing they do is on the bathroom wall. Still, am I that strange?

Then, one amazing day, I found out about a journal called Blue Collar Review and the door opened up for me. Starting there, I found tons of like-minded writers doing what I had been doing; working hard, writing when they could, and just doing the best they can in a world that doesn’t seem to want them to thrive. Eureka! I began buying their books and e-mailing some of them. A world finally opened for me.

I have tried to find a definition of “blue collar poet”. I found plenty of blue collar poets but nothing specifically about the subset as a movement. From what I’ve been told, a blue collar poet is someone who works. I don’t like to get too deep into exclusive delineations and won’t say what kind of work the poet must be employed in, but let’s just say it is usually something that makes you sweat.

I have also heard that blue collar poets ordinarily lack formal training. This is probably why they are working in a blue collar job in the first place. However, I don’t think a degree would necessarily bar someone from the gang. I would go to school if I could. Would that alone cast me out of Eden? It probably depends on whom you ask. I’m sure there are some anti-snob snobs who have a clear-cut set of mandates that are not to be broken. I hate that. That mindset is just elitist as the elitists it opposes.

To me, and I am an expert on nothing whatsoever, “blue collar poetry” is real. It deals with real life issues that real life people can almost unanimously relate with. Then, it spins that mundane universal into something beautiful, poignant, and maybe even profound.

There is more, though. There is a special kind of suffering in blue collar poetry, a confirmation that the poor in spirit, those who possess little in the way of tangible goods or power, truly are blessed. In fact, blue collar poetry is, at its very core, a beatification of those tiny figures nobody sees. Who made all your gadgets? Who brought you your coffee and eggs at the diner this morning? Whose sweat brought you your comforts? Your needs?

There is fight in the voice, a struggle with something very tangible yet alluding to the intangible. It is a fight to remain alive even if unnoticed. More than a fight, it is a celebration that we made it to this moment in time, roughed up, beaten and weary, but nevertheless very much alive.

One of the things I like most about what is usually called “blue collar poetry” is that its surface is easy to grasp yet the depths go on infinitely. If I like something about the story, I go deeper and deeper. There are no riddles to decipher in some secret post-modern language. I did enough of that in my few years of college. Give me something to make me want to read it again and find the universal truth hidden between the lines. That is what “blue collar poetry” usually does for me.

I close with reiteration of the assertion that I am not an expert. This is not meant to be a definitive article on a new movement in creative writing. I just want to get a discussion started. Maybe there is a new movement happening here that people will discuss in centuries to come. Maybe not. Or maybe there is someone who will read this who is just like me and is yet to discover that there are others of a similar ilk.

I am a blue collar poet. What’s more, there are legions of us out there working, struggling, surviving, writing. What we lack in formal education we make up for with grit. Honest, real-life, grit. There are calluses on our hands and feet, sweat stains on our undershirts, and silent prayers in our boisterous profanity. We write because we must. The compulsion in our spirits will not rest.

People have told me writing is a waste of time. Once in a while I even believe them. Yet, every day that little black notebook comes out of my back pocket and opens up like a door to a better world where all of this means something. I hope to find more people in that world. Together, we can affirm the stirring in our psyches that says, “Hold on. Keep your eye on the prize and never stop moving forward. Never.”

 

Blue Collar Poet Steve KolterStephen Kolter is a poet, editor for Creeping Lotus Press, and a factory worker. Much of his writing is done on the factory floor or is about his co-workers. He has a chapbook of blue collar poetry titled From the Floor forthcoming from Cat in Sun Press. His work has appeared most recently in Blue Collar Review, Relief Journal, Lucid Moon, and other independent magazines. He won the 2014 Charlotte Simon Miller Award for poetry. Visit him on the web at www.stephenkolter.com.

Can a Writer Stop Writing?

Jim Ross

When I was in my early 20s, Richard Nixon was President and I was the only white guy who attended a speech by Stokely Carmichael at a primarily black university. I lived in group houses that we self-consciously called communes, made my living by substitute teaching every subject from home economics to probability theory, but got my jollies writing. I wrote non-fiction stories based heavily on what I experienced around me: the dynamics of sharing in a so-called but inauthentic commune, trying to write a psych paper while hallucinating, and milling around in front of the White House the night Richard Nixon resigned. I had no clue how to find a writer’s market, so instead I wrote stories in the form of multi-page letters, sent the original to any of various friends—they were my sole audience—and kept the carbon copy. Sometimes, I slipped one under the door of an old college professor, who said she treasured them. At 27, I was hired as a stringer (paid by the interview) for tracking down and interviewing drug addicts released from Federal prisons. I turned the diary into a book, using the same typewriter and lots of correcto-tape. Writing made my heart sing.

Also at 27, I also got my first real job and met someone. I put the book on a shelf and mostly forgot about it. I was a professional and wasn’t paid for writing “cute stories.” I tried to weave stories in, but they got edited out. So, I put my head down and focused on learning how a researcher writes and on forming a relationship with the love of my life. I got to write plenty, but not the kind that made my heart sing. Over time, I published over 60 articles in the top professional journals in my field. I co-edited several special issues of journals. I co-authored book chapters. After one study, I did over 700 hundred interviews with print and broadcast media. That was a blast because I had the chance to contribute to what others wrote—and often saw their finished products.

Most of the journal article writing ended by age 45. After that, I focused on becoming the best proposal writer in the company. Writing proposals was how people believed we got funding for new research projects. Of course, that wasn’t really true—people usually got funded because they convinced the funder ahead of time they were the ones who should be funded. I learned how to do both well and had by far the highest hit rate in the company. Eventually, I started to convince people that writing proposals wasn’t so much an analytical task as it was about writing stories. Prospective funders, like most people, loved to hear stories. Still, all the while, I felt like I was being kept from what I loved, by the demand to write in language government bureaucrats could grasp. For relief, I emailed a group of friends long movie reviews and multi-page stories about the unusual in usual life experiences.

Something happened. After a corporate takeover, I lost my job. I made a list of things I wanted to write about, but wrote nothing. I got a new job. I went on a pilgrimage. Then something else happened. A 27 year old to whom I am connected through a chain of trust pleaded on Facebook for someone to write a story about “at the movies” for her little e-zine. I volunteered; she accepted. Over a year and a half, she came up with new challenges weekly, often on short notice, such as: “in the dark,” “on the bus,” “at the gym,” “at the ballet,” and “about mom.” She got my juices going with a purpose. Writing for this 27 year-old, I was picking up where I’d left off at 27. A couple of stories she rejected; a few I pulled back. For “at the gym,” After I wrote a story about the trusting integration of the DC snipers into the Silver Spring YMCA, I realized I had something I could publish in a big name publication (and later did). The first mother’s day story I wrote for her– caring for my mother after a stroke when she suffered from dementia and went through hospice–also got published recently after 50 re-writes in one of the oldest continuously operating literary magazines online. One day, I dug into the basement to find the remnants of when I was 27. I found typed diaries, copies of letters, stories, and poems. I found the dusty book—marked “it”—I wrote at 27, pulled one of 100 stories out of it, and turned it into a pilot for something larger. I’d found myself locked in an old box.

A lucrative career as a public health researcher paid me well for writing and for making connections. Intermittently, I got to email a story or movie review to a friend, and it gave me spiritual mouth-to-mouth. I got used to a sky-high hit rate writing proposals to government agencies and foundations, and now must reconcile myself to being rejected the overwhelming majority of the time when I submit pieces to literary journals. Most of the time, there’s nothing resembling a request for proposals (RFP) other than a broad announcement of a theme (e.g., “skin,” “slow,” “meat,” “travelogue,” “compassion”). I don’t know how to make connections within this environment. I haven’t spent a career honing the craft of writing non-fiction stories. It’s been a challenge to get some editors to understand that I’m giving them creative non-fiction, not fiction. The managing editor at a major print magazine assigned the story I wrote about the DC snipers to its fiction editor. Perhaps in some ways it really doesn’t matter. As a writer friend who also runs a publishing house told me, “Everything we write is fiction because it represents the world as seen through our eyes.” All I know is, after a long hiatus, it’s great to be 27 again.

Speaking of which, I need to say something about the 27 year old whose e-zine gave me the opportunity to resume being a 27 year old myself. Apparently, after running her weekly e-zine for two and a half years, the 27 year old got a real job that’s thoroughly absorbing and got engaged. She didn’t have time for her little e-zine, so she suspended publication a year ago. She told me the other day, “I’m not even writing any more. I think it’s just a phase.” I hope so. It took me far too long to pick up where I left off at 27.

 

Writer Jim RossJim Ross is a health researcher who has published in many peer-reviewed professional journals. After a long hiatus, he has begun to write stories again. The Atlantic  and Friends Journal carried his story about how the DC snipers worked out daily at the Silver Spring YMCA. PIF  Magazine recently carried his story about caring at home for his mother with dementia and traveling with her to that momentary space between life and death. He has about 20 other stories in the works.

Bigger in Russia

Suzanne Kamata

Authors are responsible for marketing their own books. It’s a given these days. If we don’t promote the heck out of them, often on our own dimes, then no one will know about them or buy them.

Okay, I get all that. My first novel, Losing Kei, about an American expatriate who loses custody of her only son to her Japanese ex-husband and resorts to desperate measures to get him back, was published in 2008 by a respected small press in Wellfleet, Massachusetts. My editor/publisher/publicist put out only one book that season – mine. He lavished it with attention, came up with a stunning cover, and launched it into the world. Losing Kei was reviewed in Publisher’s Weekly and Booklist. Trade reviews, as any author knows, are key to getting books into libraries and bookstores. So far, so good. But I knew I had to do my part, too.

I pursued every publicity channel I could think of on my own. I got a well-known author to blurb my book, finagled a review in the San Francisco Chronicle by appealing directly to a reviewer, set up readings, spoke at conferences, attended book festivals, and answered interview questions on book-related blogs. I spent thousands of dollars of my own money on promoting my debut. Yes, I had a blog tour. Yes, I conducted giveaways. I sent hundreds of post cards, each with a personal note. Through my own connections, I got the novel into the hands of eminent Japanologist Donald Richie, who praised it in the pages of The Japan Times.

For all that work, my novel sold a little over a thousand copies – a respectable number for a small, literary press, I’m told. Many books sell in the tens, or hundreds, even with a push. Still, I always felt a faint sense of shame that my book didn’t do better. My dream of being a bestselling author is still just that.

A couple of years later, I got an email from the foreign rights department of a publisher in Russia. In grammatically creative English, the sender asked me to send copies of Call Me Okaasan, a collection of essays I’d edited on mothering children across two or more cultures, and my novel, Losing Kei. The message came through my website, not through my agent or publisher, so I immediately thought it was some sort of scam. Maybe they’d ask me to front a few thousand rubles for the translation of my books. Maybe they’d just ask for my bank details or credit card number, without having any intention of translating or publishing the work whatsoever.

I looked up the publisher’s site. Although I can’t read Cyrillic, there was enough English for me to determine that they had published books by Elizabeth Gilbert and 50 Cent. Well, then! I sent along files of the books, expecting nothing. After all, they hadn’t even read my work. Earlier in the process, there’d been a couple of nibbles from Italian publishers which had come to nothing. There was no guarantee that the Russians would like my books.

To my amazement, a couple of months later, I got another email saying that they wanted to publish Losing Kei. My agent negotiated a modest advance, which was still higher than the one I’d gotten from my American publisher. I wasn’t asked to answer interview questions for Russian bloggers, hop over to Moscow for readings, or supply the names of potential reviewers. It’s not even as if I could, since I don’t speak, read, or write Russian. I did nothing at all, and yet my book sold.

A few days ago, I spotted a message in my inbox from my agent with the subject title: “Royalty Report.” I groaned, and thought about deleting it unread. But it wasn’t the expected proof of my failure as an author in America. It was the report from my Russian publisher. Without any effort whatsoever on my part, my book had sold 10,000 copies. The publisher had been moved to issue a new edition, and they contacted my agent to negotiate an e-book. Two years after its publication in Moscow, I’m close to earning back my advance.

While 10,000 copies is a drop in the bucket for, say, Stephen King or John Green, it’s a lot for a literary novel by an unknown author.

I have some theories as to why it’s doing better in Russia than the States. My novel is set in Japan, which is Russia’s neighbor. Perhaps Russians are simply more interested in what happens here than the average American. Or maybe they read more. There’s also the question of distribution. My Russian publisher is big, and my American publisher is small. In spite of what everyone says about Amazon, maybe having a book widely available in book stores is more important than good reviews, celebrity blurbs, and blog tours. Or maybe my Russian translator took some liberties and injected time-traveling vampires into the plot. Who knows?

Although I still wish that my efforts in the U.S. yielded more results, I’m trying to be more philosophical about the publishing process. I’ll continue doing everything I can to get my books into readers’ hands, but I won’t let myself get bogged down in shame. I’ll keep writing and honing my craft. It sometimes takes time for a book to find its audience. Maybe they live in another country. Maybe they haven’t even been born yet.

Suzanne KamataSuzanne Kamata is an American, most recently from South Carolina, now living in Japan. My second novel, Gadget Girl (GemmaMedia, 2013), was recently awarded the APALA Honor Award for YA Fiction and was named a book of Outstanding Merit by Bank Street College. My most recent novel, Screaming Divas (F & W Media/Merit Press, May 2014) is about an all-girl punk rock band in 1980s South Carolina.

Announcing the Winners!

To celebrate our Spring / Summer 2014 issue and our new Reviews section, we held a contest to give away copies of the books reviewed in this issue.  Here are the winners:

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Thank you to everyone who helped promote our latest issue!  Go to our Sweepstakes page for more information about the contest.

Our reading period for the Fall / Winter issue will begin September 1, so polish your best pieces!  We are excited to read your work!

In the meantime, keep reading our blog, which features weekly posts from accomplished writers offering a variety of interesting perspectives on the writing life.

Disquiet International Lisbon Portugal

Write Yourself Disquiet in Portugal

Annie Liontas

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The fourth annual DISQUIET International Literary Program was held in Lisbon in 2014. Run by a group of North American writers with ties to Portugal, the program aims to deepen mutual understanding among writers from North America and writers from Portugal. The program takes its inspiration from The Book of Disquiet, the great Lisbon poet Fernando Pessoa’s masterpiece; from the city of Lisbon itself; and from the late Portuguese poet Alberto de Lacerda, who believed above all in the importance of literary community.

“Write yourself naked, from exile, in blood.”—Denis Johnson, Disquiet Writer-in-Residence

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After working in isolation in Philadelphia for the past year, I started to realize that I’ve been waiting to be disquieted for some time. I was ready to be unsettled: I felt it in my bones, the restlessness, the need to find others like me. Somehow I knew I’d have to travel 3,500 miles before I could be reminded that there is but one nation, and that is the nation of writers.

It’s been a long time since I’ve traveled, and never have I traveled for writing. This summer I answered Disquiet’s call, which proclaims that “stepping out of the routine of one’s daily life and into a vibrant, rich, and new cultural space unsettles the imagination, loosens a writer’s reflexes.”

Write Yourself Naked…

In Portugal, everyone goes naked, on and off the beaches. By this I mean that what I found at Disquiet were people, not writers, not speakers, not editors, not panels. Over two very potent weeks, I got a chance to see my colleagues up close for who they really were and not for their titles. I heard their work, broke Pao de Deus with them, and realized that there is something alarmingly honest about Disquiet’s mission: when the time and place are right, we writers become true to ourselves, both on and off the page. I realized wasn’t just among writers at Disquiet, I was among colleagues in a shared experience of discovery. We were all in it together, questioning and exploring and celebrating over vinho verde—lots of vinho verde, with every meal, and at the end of every night during raucous breakdancing and awkward writer-dancing at the strange hallway that is club Oslo. Yes, there was some getting naked in that way, too.

Some of my favorite moments during this conference were connecting with writers who were disarmed by the truly seductive, creative city that is Lisboa, talking—as I did with poet Erica Dawson—about how you need to let go of previous, precious selves in order to reach new work. Or hearing from Denis Johnson about how his first wife asked him when he was going to get a real job and he answered, “Never.” He’d simply write on that bench outside and when he got tired, he’d sleep under it.

From Exile…

Disquiet contends that to be a writer, you must at all times be in exile. Writing can only come from a place of foreignness, because the writer is both within and without the world. This experience, in fact, is what led Fernando Pessoa to write The Book of Disquiet. The work, which refuses to be defined, originated in Pessoa’s wandering of the bohemian, labyrinthine streets of Lisbon. It leaves us with fragmented insights like, “you’ll discover your landscapes.” The Lisbon that greets you at Disquiet, refusing to be mapped, is undoubtedly Pessoa’s Lisbon. The city has even built the house of Jose Saramago to feel exactly like his brain, full of multiplicity and clauses. We had a chance to hear a number of readings at the Saramago House. This is just one of the many things that the conference does right.

At Disquiet I was reminded that there is something joyous about exile when you understand that you are not alone in it. Even the pain of disorientation becomes a kind of ecstasy when it’s in communion. Patrícia Portela, Luso writer and winner of the Prize Acarte/Madalena Azeredo Perdigão, talked literature, politics, and octopus with some of us participants over dinner. With these lines from her novel The Banquet, Patrícia Portela reminds us how we—all of us members of the nation of writers—write from exile, together but apart.

I am at my funeral and I am speaking to a crowd of hundreds. I know them all and I remember the first time I met each and every one of them. They are all seated and I, on foot, divulge the secret of life.

In Blood.

True Artist Paula Rega: “Go to all this trouble to find out, all this fear you carry, how to depict it.” @disquietilp #binders

There was blood in Portugal. On the Camino Portugues pilgrimage. In the willful, heart wrenching song of the fado. On a visit to the Casa das Histórias Paula Rego in Cascais, where Paula Rego, prolific and intense, does things you have never seen done with dog-women. Most of all there was blood on the page, when the writer dared to go deep and write honestly.

During my favorite workshop at the bar Maria Caxuxa, Alissa Nutting told me exactly what happens to a woman’s vulva after pregnancy. Spoiler alert: it turns “rotisserie-chicken brown.”  This was over a round of ginginhas, talking about our obsessions, which, for a writer, is often the lifeblood of one’s work. Later in actual workshop, Alissa asked us to write about an object that your character can’t and won’t get rid of, even if it brings pain, even if it draws blood. Mine was the bones of an owl.

I think when Disquiet Writer-in-Residence Denis Johnson tells us to write “in blood,” he means leave nothing of yourself behind. Hold nothing back. But sometimes writers need to feel that they are part of a community that can support such a sacrifice. Disquiet, paradoxically, becomes a safe space even as it pushes you, urges you, to get outside yourself—even as it requires nothing less than you meeting yourself in a new place in the world.

Maybe you’ve been feeling a little disquieted lately. If so, join the nation of writers next year, in exile, in Portugal.

 

Photo of writer Annie LiontasAnnie Liontas‘ debut novel, Let Me Explain You, is forthcoming from Scribner in 2015. She is the recent recipient of a grant from the Barbara Deming Memorial Fund to conduct research in Trinidad for her newest work Badeye, which also received Honorary Mention in the 2013 Dana Awards. Her story “Two Planes in Love” was selected as runner-up in Bomb magazine’s 2013 Fiction Prize Contest and was published by Bomb in December. Other stories and poems have appeared in Ninth Letter, Night Train, and Lit. She graduated from Syracuse University’s MFA Program and co-hosts the TireFire Reading Series in Philadelphia.  Follow her on Twitter, @aliontas.

Unemployed

Lydia Pyne

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“I have a good life but I must write because if I do not write a certain amount I do not enjoy the rest of my life.”

“And what do you want?”

“To write as well as I can and learn as I go along.”

–Ernest Hemingway, Green Hills of Africa

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A couple of years ago, my husband and I lived in Philadelphia. He was a newly minted particle physics researcher for the University of Pennsylvania and I was slated to teach history of science and writing at Drexel University. The summer before our jobs started, we packed up our Nissan pickup in northern New Mexico and pointed ourselves eastward.

We experienced, shall we say, a bit of cultural shock. Settling into our faux chateau row house in West Philly, I found it difficult to concentrate on writing. I had a hard time blocking out the constant sounds of the City of Brotherly Tough Love. The clang of the trolley bell. The screaming negotiations over parking spaces. The neighbor’s dog running laps around the furniture. The honking, the honking.

One afternoon the first week in the city, it was particularly difficult to focus on an essay review for New York Journal of Books. As my attention wandered, I heard a faint pop!, pop!, pop! in the distance. I hurried over to the window of our third-floor apartment and I saw a guy hanging out the front window of a car, firing a handgun at the side of our apartment building. I was appalled.

I managed to jot down the license plate number and within five minutes, a police car arrived on the scene, lights flashing, and a couple of officers began to take witness statements.

Apparently, I wasn’t the only one in the neighborhood with a sense of civic duty. By the time I made down to the street level, the officers were interviewing a dozen or so people milling around the corner. Amazingly, all of these folks seemed to know each other – conversation hummed. One of the officers turned to me, ready to take down my statement.

“Name?” he asked.

“Lydia Pyne.”

He wrote it down in the first box on the form. His biceps bulged. A tribal tattoo peeked out of his uniform sleeve. He exuded Tough Guy.

“Occupation?”

“I’m a writer,” I replied.

His pen paused mid-stroke. Standing at a modest five-foot-four, this guy towered over me. He dipped his head down to peer over his aviator shades. “Occupation?” he asked again.

“I’m a writer,” I repeated.

The cop turned and surveyed the crowd milling around us. I felt conspicuously overdressed in my slouchy sweatshirt and ratty yoga pants. The scene was an impromptu pajama salon straight out of Rent’s central casting, right there on west 48th Street. One bearded guy, in a tattered blue bathrobe, was describing a self-help book he was working on. A woman in a tres chic flannel set was chatting to another woman in bunny slippers about switching agents to one in New York. Another couple debated the merits of writing technical reviews. The shooting was merely an excuse for everyone to come outside and talk about writing – a teeming milieu of writers in an odd bit of street performance art.

The officer turned back to me. “You’re all writers,” he grunted, gesturing to Bunny Slippers and Company. He wrote “Unemployed” in box for my statement and strode off to interview the next bathrobed bohemian.

I was livid. I wanted grab the guy by the lapels, and scream, “Unemployed!?!? I’m not unemployed! I’m a WRITER! I’m an essayist! I’ve even published a book for god’s sakes!”

I turned to the guy next to me, ready to vent my irritation. He ran his hand through his uncombed hair and started talking about a travel memoir he was working on – his trip across the United States by historic railway.

I realized that I had gotten something so much better than career affirmation and my righteous indignation in that first week in Philly. As I had told Officer Krumke, I am a writer. And thanks to the Philadelphia Police Department, I had gotten a story.

 

Lydia PyneLydia Pyne is a writer and historian based in Austin, TX. Her interests in literary nonfiction focus on history of science; her research and writing projects have ranged from South Africa, Ethiopia, Uzbekistan, and Iran as well as the American Southwest. She is the co-author of The Last Lost World and a contributing editor for The Appendix. She reviews history, anthropology, and literary nonfiction for NewPages and The New York Journal of Books.  Visit her website at http://pynecone.org, or follow her on Twitter, @LydiaPyne.

On Leading a Young Writer’s Conference

Austin Lange

Recently, I found myself living in a college dorm again. In a bunk bed.

For a week in June, I served as the conference and workshop leader for the Young Writer’s Conference for the Edgar Allan Poe Museum in Richmond, VA.

I realized that going into this,
1) I’d be living in a dorm for a week with my students and also serving as a RA (Resident Assistant); and I was reminded of how much I felt my RA in undergraduate school gave me that look on the elevator in the mornings when I knew she could sense I was hung over and silently judging me for my new pink striped hair. I was secretly overjoyed to now be the one to enforce that look.
2) These are teenagers! They think they already know everything! Will they have a secret lingo I won’t understand?

From the start, I stuck to my literary game. I had five days of workshops and discussions planned out and I was ready to take these kids on the heavenly train of Poe and other writers that I felt were godly. After meeting with a well-known editor from a Virginia based literary journal on the first day of workshop, the students sat motionless, adjusting their bandanas and reapplying their lip glosses. There I was waving my arms around with questions about the in and outs of a journal I admired while my students sat hungrily eyeing their iPhones for Instagram likes.

After the first workshop plenary, I reminded myself that I had a room full of fifteen writers who wanted to be there. I knew then that boredom wasn’t really the reason the questions weren’t coming during the first Q&A. I told each to look around the room at one another and reminded each of the unique opportunity that they were a part of for five short days. “This is our community,” I said. “We’re all here because we’re writers.” “This is your week to be with a community of people just as strange as you are. Embrace it!” After some of their jitters started to peel away, I begin to notice them loosening up, speaking to one another and finding their own commonalities amongst one another.

Sure, there were challenges during the week that I hadn’t prepared myself for:

• Some teens will share accessories (“You look totally epic in my flower crown, I’ll wear your neon aviators.”) and they change clothes constantly, (“Austin, I need to go back up to the dorm to change clothes, these shoes are just not right.”)
• They will make Snap Chat videos for everything.
• Teens will argue to walk two blocks to Chipotle instead of using their dining hall pass for a FREE meal. (“But, there’s a fro-yo station in the dining hall with rainbow sprinkles!” I would shout.)
• They struggle to set down their phones. “Okay, guys workshop is starting, please put your phones away.” “No, I mean, phone away and off the table. 2 hours from your iPhone is doable, promise.”
• They will ask you to play a game that you love and you’ll have say No because you’re the adult.
“Austin, you have to play Cards Against Humanity with us!”
“Um, I think I’ll just watch from this comfy chair and smirk.” (For the record, I am really good at this game and I love vulgarity.)

On the last night of the conference, the museum hosted a public reading for the student in their garden. Through the nervous jitters of crumbling their pages between sweaty palms, I noticed right away that I had fifteen writers and fifteen very different voices. As they read, I listened and found their progress from hearing my critiques of their work and their efforts to etch in those changes and new observations from their peers.

Some held paper pages and gripped the podium, while others balanced laptops or iPads and bundled their nerves and energy together to read to the few visitors and their peer community (Mind you, I sat in the back, wiping tears).

In my farewell to them, I realized I didn’t have to remind them of keeping base in the artistic community they had started there in Richmond or to use one another for new writing ventures, because it was already happening. The need to belong to their writing group had already dug itself in and given each the feverish desire to continue to support one another. They had demonstrated to me their own need to know more about writing and discovering new writers to read too (I especially loved that when I gave new writer recommendations, the students would iPad or smartphone “bookmark” them for their next trip to a bookstore.)

The point in writing this all down isn’t to come off as a sentimental blob, but to admit to myself, that in the end my students came together in a more significant way than just as writing workshop buddies or new Facebook friends, but as young writers looking to branch out together. It seems they adjusted better than my adult self at jumping into a literary circle, at forming relationships and creating a solid foundation for a start to a supportive literary community of their own. Since the end of the week with them, I’ve had time to process it a little more and realize the admiration I have for them and the motivation it’s given me to write a little bit more too.

My students and I made the news, check it out here: http://ideastations.org/radio/news/teens-pursue-literary-passions-edgar-allan-poe-young-writers-conference.

If you need Richmond, VA recommendations for your next road trip, I recommend:
Poe’s Pub, 2706 E Main St
University of Virginia Library/Special Collections
The Poe Museum, 1914 E Main Street
Penny Lane Pub, 421 E Franklin Street
Chop Suey Bookstore, 2913 W. Cary Street

 

Austin L PhotoAustin Lange received her MFA from Converse College and currently works in nonprofit. She has work forthcoming in The South Carolina Review and Nebo. She hopes this year to learn paddleboard yoga, to continue supporting Carolina arts, and to make progress on her novel.