A kaleidoscope of roofers skim rafters, flick along ridges, like a tongue with no restraint. All morning their hammers thump & echo as they slap down shingles pound thrap, pound thrap, then re-consider, as if the roof were a past that needs sorting out. How do we repair the damage in our lives wrought by naivety & lingering regret? Some days, I want to tear out the underlayment of a time & rework the story I’ve told myself, a false narrative that shields the truth the way a roof protects a home’s inner rooms from elements harsh & unexpected. At twenty, I endured the whims of one– older, trusted-- then lived with the aftermath for years. There remains in me a need to take up caulk & ladder, & chalk off points between the bearable, the blessed, & the horrific in the manner of the workers who utilize experience & thick rolls of papered tar with an eye for what’s salvageable & what needs to go. By 3PM, the neighbor’s roof is shored up & renewed. The cacophony of clanging tools & shouts runs silent like a well-kept secret before it comes to light. Their working day, complete. Their debris, hauled away. ---
J. A. Lagana is the author of Make Space. Her poems have appeared in Burningword Literary Journal, Cider Press Review, Rattle, and elsewhere. A founder and former co-editor of River Heron Review, she lives with her family in a Pennsylvania river town. Learn more at jlagana.com.